A few days ago, I was on my knees praying at my bedside. I needed to get rid of the weight of expectations I had put on myself and as well some other emotional baggage I was carrying.
I know what it’s like to pick up a weight that is too heavy for you because two weeks earlier I had done exactly that while at the gym. I used a weight that was just to heavy for me.
Well, my body has been recovering from that incident for three weeks now. I felt crunched from head to toe.
And, that is how I felt that night as I knelt at my bedside, crunched, overloaded and hurting in my spirit. Too much emotional weight had piled itself on me and I was feeling overwhelmed in many areas.
I am not much of a kneeler when it comes to prayer as I like to walk while I pray. But that night I went to my knees because I desperately needed to transfer everything over to Jesus. It was all too much!
I had been on my knees for only 30 seconds when I saw a long garment, like a robe, swaying before me. I wasn’t sure what was happening and then I saw a body bending before me and I realized that Christ was kneeling, bending forward so that I could easily put the weight of my worry on His shoulders.
I was in disbelief ! He looked up at me with friendly eyes and a gentle smile. I knew in that moment that Jesus saw me and everything that was troubling me.
Christ had seen me and according to the Bible this is one of the names of God, “El Roi,” the God who sees me.
I was just as astonished by this as Hagar, the mother of Ishmael. Sarai, Abraham’s wife, had been unable to get pregnant so she gave her maid servant Hagar to Abraham to try to conceive a child. When Hagar became pregnant, Sarai became jealous and began mistreating Hagar who eventually fled.
Out in the wilderness, an Angel of the Lord appeared to Hagar telling her to go back and that God would bless her and multiply her descendants. Hagar was shocked when she understood that Jehovah was the God who saw her struggles.
“She gave this name to the LORD who spoke to her: “You are the God who sees me,” [El Roi] for she said, “I have now seen the One who sees me.” (Genesis 16:13)
I don’t know if what I saw was a vision or not, but I am so grateful for these visual pictures that remind me that Jesus is my friend and the “God who sees me.”